T.T
I'm now pondering whether I should've posted this, or not (and left it as a draft).
Today I realised how much of a shadow I was. People talk about me, as if I'm not there, but in actual fact, I'm standing right next to them. Is it just me, or do they act as if they don't see me or realise that I have feelings too.
Most of you might not notice this, but I have a feeling that depression is starting to hit me... hard. I feel like I'm just not enjoying life any more. I am not really close to any of my friends any more, like I'm slowly drifting away from them. Same goes for family. It's as if I'm being rejected by everyone, everyday , 24/7. Parents don't seem to really trust or believe what I say very often. And the worst part is that when I try to be happy, I usually think to myself, "what is there to be happy about?" Nowadays, no one is there to be there for me when I'm troubled and dismal. I don't see why I should have a reason to think that I should be a happier, more bubblier person, since all the important people in my life appear to be straying away from me. Do you think I was born to live in this world? If so, why? I'm not satisfied with anything I do any more.
Have I've gone insane? x_x
(Note: I know most of what I have written might not make and sense to you, but please don't give a crap on what you have just read.)
P.S: On a more happier note, since I have persuaded my dad why I hate 3 Mobile Broadband so much, he finally gave in to my ranting, and let us change to TPG. yay! ^^
Sorry for wasting your time if you happened to accidentally stumble upon this,
~Jenny♥
~ post at 4/23/2010 09:56:00 pm ~
my hopes. my dreams. 